When a friend who you thought understands you turned out to be someone who doesn't, what are you gonna do? When that friend called you a really awful name, what are you gonna feel?
I was actually told by a friend that I am hypocrite. I was really angry that time. When I got home, the first thing I did was googled the meaning of hypocrite. You see, the reason why I did that is to justify that description. I thought to myself, maybe that description is not as bad as I thought it'll be.
Guess what I found out, it's much more worse than what I thought.
According to Merriam-Webster (www.merriam-webster.com), hypocrite means "a person who claims or pretends to have certain beliefs about what is right but who behaves in a way that disagrees with those beliefs".
That left me with the question - am I really doing things opposite of what I'm saying? At some point, I doubted myself. Sometimes, I tell people I'm happy or okay, even though I'm not. Is that hypocrisy? I pretend that I like someone, even though I don't. Is that hypocrisy? Are those reasons enough to call someone hypocrite? I don't really understand.
It's actually awful to hear that from a friend whom you trust. But what can I do. Though it hurts, that's her opinion. After hearing that, it taught me something of myself and something about that person.
I know I'm not really a good person, but I actually believe that I am much more better than a hypocrite one.
